I am really sad. being back on da makes me want to post my works, but I cannot. I do not want to become hurt again. I got back on da to make friends and chat with old friends from before but do they care? NO! simply just no, I have sent notes to my old friends who happen to ignore me. Hate me, but I do not know why. I have been so lonely recently. Every one seem to hate me for a reson I do not know what is. It hurts so much not knowing what I've done to them. I have only ONE friend here, =TigerJade-86. Why cannot everyone be like her. She cares! I am a writer, and sometimes but very rare an artist. But since people hurt me talking shitass of my work I have no guts to post online anymore. why do they hurt me? simply telling me this-> "that pair suck, write another one!", "crossover's for losers.", "get the fuck off this page, you SUCK!", "yuri is disguting! no one wants that!" and much more even worse I wont talk about. it hurts taking about it anyway. I just feel so alone here there is no reason for me to even be here. -____-
it is just the same in real life, everyone hates me and do not want anything with me to do. Becomes angry with me once I tell my opinions (except my grandma, mom, gf and sister). I have been bullied with in school, raped when I was 15 and is cos of that afraid of boys. I have thought of suicide lots of times but something is stopping me, but I think it is Melissa. pretty much sure of that anyways. so, it is simply only Grandma, Mom, my sistey, Missy and May who cares. maybe you too Leni, I don't know but you do seem like nice person. yes, well. so I have this huge urge to just quit da and everything creative I do.